Today was the toughest day of my life. Nothing was different then it usually is, except that it took an eternity to pass through. Have you ever felt like all eyes were on you? Me neither, but today they may as well have been. I feel like I'm the new poster on display in the classroom that everybody notices, and some even comment on. A simple reaction to a complicated action has shifted the polar balance of my own isolated world.
Let's rewind the tape, save the date, today will be the day I can't forget, the day I can't regret because all of the hard work payed off tonight. The moon shines on me and I can't help but smile at the amazing cliche unfolding in front of me. I know better than to fit the cliche, so I smile and relax, letting it overwhelm me. My joy is extreme now, and it reflects off of my teeth and spreads to another. This is the way every night should be, they should all be this easy. But is this easy? I catch my foot before every step, making sure it is carefully placed on the foundation being built. No, this isn't easy, but when I look back on the day, the million little things that I had to struggle with just to make the motions, this is easy by comparison by far. Walking through the halls, sitting and talking, even just going out to lunch, all of it was near impossible to do without being ambushed or assaulted by a rush of people I have never met. Making it through today unscathed was a miracle on ice, something I thought only happened when Disney charged you admission fees. Turns out they don't own everything yet, I can make my own movie after all.
Back to tonight, back to the moon. Let's go back to the future, which can't come too soon.
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